From Tumblr to Dreamwidth

[ruinofeventide]

Before Tumblr, I was never one to blog.  I felt I never had anything important to say or talk about, and wasn't (and still am not) the kind of person to share a lot of details about their life.  I do not like to talk about when I am sad, upset, or angry as I feel as I would bother those who visit my blog.  I have tried numerous times, before Tumblr, to blog and have tried to on platforms such as Wordpress and Blogger; however, those always fell through.  They were religious themed, based on the religion I had at the time, but they never continued as my life kept changing around me and so did my religion.

In comes Tumblr.  My sister introduces me to it, and the first year, I mainly reblog with a personal and don't really get into the actual blogging aspect.  Time moves on and I decide to make a pagan side blog, and, hence, enter the pagan "community" of tumblr.  Once again, the religious blogs fall through and I go back to my personal blog of just, well, reblogging.  I learn thing from the various tags centered around witchcraft and paganism and such, and so, I keep tracking them and learning.

I have been through many accounts and many blogs.  My very first account is still active (I think), but every time I felt a change was needed I created a new one.  My sister says I am a very "whimsical" and "capricious" (sometimes even mercurial), and I do understand and see what she means.  Nothing has ever been consistent in my life for a long time, so when I found I was on Tumblr for a long time (going on two-three years now, I think), I realized that maybe I found a place I wanted to be and blog.

My entrance and exits in the pagan "community" was common, however, as my beliefs and practices kept changing.  It finally stabilized in July 2013 when I came to my current path.  I have had my religious, pagan blog for a little over six months (which is a long run for me), and I love what I do.  However, being a Pop Culture Pagan, I am met with certain "difficulties" in the pagan "community."  While there are people who understand and accept my lifestyle, there are others who just want to break it down.  I have fought through this.  I refused to let them get to me, and a part of me still doesn't.  However, other factors within the pagan "community" have caused me to re-evaluate why I stay on Tumblr.

I don't feel safe anymore.  Yes, it is my blog, but there will always be people who will reblog and comment negatively about something, skew ideas and concepts, attack someone for a belief they may hold, and none of it educational in the least.  There is drama.  Always drama.  I don't mind learning, and re-evaluating something I say or do, but I have found that a lot of times I am hesitant to even post something because I am not sure if I will word it right to escape backlash, whether it will just get backlash anyway, or something of the sort.  I am scared of posting on my own blog.

I have sat and thought, may times, as to whether I wanted to stay on Tumblr or not; however, I have some wonderful friends on there.  Regardless, I went looking for a blogging platform that wasn't like Tumblr nor Wordpress (where I do have a blog dedicated to my religion as well), as neither seemed to either meet my needs or weren't "user-friendly."  Dreamwidth was recommended after I asked about it, and now here I am.  I still have my blog on Tumblr (of which I am currently on hiatus), and have this place as my safe spot to blog in the meantime when I feel Tumblr has gotten to me too much.

So, welcome everyone to my Dreamwidth blog.